Monthly Archives: September 2013

Recent Ramblings



I have been so quiet.  I think it’s because I’m slightly terrified of what is next.  I read my old blog and I don’t know that I know that person anymore.  New fears have replaced the old ones… and these fears somehow seem heavier than ever.  Well, I think I used to be funny (emphasis on “I think”).  It’s hard to have a sense of humor when the consequences of this not working out are so much more serious this time around. 

I don’t think I would survive.  That’s some super scary shit.

So it’s easier to be quiet. 


I try to lie and tell myself that I am not that huge.  I said this to my husband and he said… “Yea, keep telling yourself that.”  HAHAHAH!  As I near the end of the second trimester, it’s time I wear strictly maternity clothes.  Up until this point, I could get away with a non maternity shirt with maternity pants, or vice versa.  About two weeks ago this stomach just popped out of no where. 

I am officially 26 weeks. Insane. 

Hallmark has Christmas ornaments out.  I walked by and one caught my attention.  “Babies first Christmas 2013.”  I had to buy it.  I also cried in Hallmark by myself like a freak.  Never ever ever did I think we would ever get to this point.  The moments that force me to realize that this is actually a reality are the ones that make me super emotional. 

Purchasing things for the baby is a slippery slope.  Once you start, you can not stop.  I’m obsessed. 

Operation “Get babies Room” together is in full effect.  I am so excited about the room that I can barely contain myself.  I purchased the crib on Craigslist a while ago.  We just got a changing table from Ikea for $50.00, and I re purposed an office armoire  that we’ve had for years.  My husband has his work clothes in the closet in that room, instead of relocating it I decided to convert the armoire into a closet for her.  I also have a grandmother that is a pretty amazing sewer.  Instead of purchasing the bedding, I bought fabric and I’m having her make a crib skirt, a rail cover (instead of a bumper), curtains, a crib quilt and some pillows for the floor.  I hate to admit to a theme, but it’s under the sea… (kind of).  More adult like… I just hate the kiddy stuff out there.  So far sea horses and mermaids with a coral printed fabric are the main stars.  I can not wait for my grandmother to finish up the bedding.  The walls are currently painted a blue, grey, green and I plan on keeping them that way partly because Im lazy and partly because I like the room semi neutral with pops of color.